What’s Coming Is Better Than What is Gone

Time sure slips away faster than I could ever imagine! When I first started this blog, I thought of all the ideas I’d be able to write about and how much fun it was going to be to write when I wanted… and now, I honestly don’t even know how long it’s been! So much has happened and the busyness of our lives is just taking over. So…quick snapshot?

I don’t know what happened, but since Maeva turned five last month, it has been drama central in our house. For everything! Just giving us a little preview of the pre-teen years, I guess. Oh goody. I thank my lucky stars I only have one girl since I don’t know if I could handle another. Anyone that knows her, she is a firecracker. Energizer bunny all day long. She is a handful all on her own. But on the other hand, she is so smart, helpful, independent, outgoing, excited, and ready to start Kindergarten next month. I think we are all ready. 🙂 For her birthday, her aunt have her the card game Uno and I seriously don’t know how many games we play in a day. It’s her obsession, to say the least. It’s great that there’s finally an actual game that she can play since she knows her colors and numbers, but I think I’m gonna get burnt out on this one. Real quick. Bless her heart.

Lennox is a handful right now. He’s got a serious case of the Terrible Twos. In a big way. When we’re out and about, everyone sees how sweet he is, but then we get home and the little devil comes out to kill my vibe. I think I’m going to lose my mind every day. Literally. I truly believe my patience and tolerance levels have decreased with each child. How does that even make sense? I thought I was supposed to stop caring and sweating the small stuff after each kid…? Regardless, he keeps me on my toes…as well as his shrill scream. That has GOT to stop! When he’s not being a difficult toddler, you’ll most likely find him with a ball. Simply said, Ball Is Life for this guy! And as much as they fight, he loves playing with his sister and copies absolutely everything she does and says. When he’s by himself, he can certainly be sweet…sometimes. It’s these rough patches that make me wish the time away, but I try to remind myself to stop and enjoy them because the days really do feel so long and some days are so bad, I wake up already wishing it was bedtime. But the years fly by and I can’t get those back.

We also had a third baby! Another boy. So the boys are exactly two years apart. Saxon is a total dream baby. Now, I don’t want to jinx myself, but he is just like Maeva was as a baby…if not easier. He’s so easy going and chill and quiet and predictable…and easy! Don’t tell my other kids, but he’s definitely my favorite right now. He doesn’t talk back to me or scream at me or defy everything I say. He just smiles…what a cutie. He is officially our caboose so I’ve been trying to really enjoy the moments. It’s amazing how fast they grow. He’ll already be four months in less than two weeks and it’s so sad to think that that tiny baby stage is already over! Ugh!

As for my husband and I, we have been grinding away. I officially quit my office job to stay home with the kids full time (so hard for many reasons) and I’ve also picked up where I left off in getting my license to be a Mortgage Loan Originator. Which is taking forever. Well, I kind of had to start over. Retook an online class and now preparing for my exam. While also taking care of my three kids and maintaining my house. “So easy!” said no one ever!! GAH!!! So now that I’m home, my husband has been forced to up his game in the work department. Coaching five mornings a week, training clients during the day and some evenings, and of course Real Estate mixed in with all of it. It’s just chaos. But hey, isn’t it for everyone? Or am I just saying that to make myself feel better?

All this craziness in our lives sometimes makes me wonder if it’s worth it. I always think about what my kids will remember and what they’ll talk about from their childhood. What will the memories be? Did I play with them enough or will they just remember us on our phones all the time? It definitely reminds me to stop and enjoy each moment. Take the time to play and spend the time with them. It’s so hard to actually do sometimes, but still just as important.